Day #1

As my dearest and most loving soul sits on an airplane to Brisbane right now, I have decided to start daily journal where I am able to express myself openly to the world, with anonymity. So dear readers, please forgive my simple layout of this blog as my main focus is merely the expression of the post's content.

The day has finally come, 10th July 2013, where I have to send my world, at the airport, as she has decided to pursue her studies in Brisbane. Never did i realize that this day would come. Call me sensitive but it is true. As i make my way to KLIA, my body was overheating. I can feel the increasing tension and fever rising up in my body. Nevertheless, i was grateful that i was accompanied by a friend, in the car, as my male ego restricted me from breaking down infront of him. 

It was a long journey to the airport. Much silence was in the car as my memory flashed back to the days where i spent time with her. The laughters, the joy, the spontaneity, the company and most importantly, the love. At least, i love her. I am still not sure on her end but i believe, one day, that a miracle could happen. 

Without a doubt, i will miss her. At the airport, i took a quick cry in the toilet as the tears was overwhelming in me. I told myself to stay strong but even now, as i write this, i still cry and my heart breaks a little. I have never felt so much pain and sadness in me before. I am so worried for her as she is all alone. I hope she will find the right group of friends to mingle with over there. 

We both spent our last day together at Genting and the moment together was fascinating. I broke down to her in the car, expressing all my concerns and love to her. The moment we had will forever be in my heart and soul. 

As i watch her walk into the departure hall, i faked a smile while my heart slowly shatters into a million pieces. I want to be with her, physically and emotionally. I want to feel close to her and i hope she feels the same way too. I miss her, even at this very moment. I am willing to give the world up as long as i am with her. I have never felt so real before in my life. Is this true love? I choose to believe so. 

This is just day 1 with her absence. I hope she is doing fine and i pray for her, every night, before i sleep. I hope God will bless her and give her a sense of direction over there.